Monday, June 06, 2005

Operation Loop

Disturbing and choppy dream. I'm working from memory here, as I was hesitant to record it when I woke, thinking I wouldn't want to remember it.

The most prominent scene I remember, I was living at home with Mother and Richard, and surprisingly, Don Boatman was there (Mother's old ex-boyfriend). I was in real jeopardy, arguing with Mother like nothing I could imagine. She seemed to be drugged up and was trying to impose ridiculous rules on me. I was verbally backed into a corner and schemed how to get myself out of the situation.

At one point I wandered through the house, looking for items to take with me on a walking trip to find help. I grabbed a tray of cookies, and set them down in the bathroom, where Don Boatman followed me. I remember stepping into the shower, which had several filthy shower curtains hung within. I jumped onto the curtain closest to Don, hanging there by my fingernails digging into the plastic. I could see my reflection in the nearby mirror (which is very uncommon for me in dreams). My mouth was like Kali, blood-smeared, and my eyes and lips charcoaled out.

Then the scene jumps to me in the hospital, where I go under total anesthesia for some sort of operation. Upon waking, the nurse fails to disconnect IVs and generally just leaves me in the bed in the same state which I arrived. I managed to get out of bed, searching all over for someone to help me, to remove these IVs, and apparently a catheter, although I didn't see or feel it.

This then looped back to being with Mother, Richard and Don Boatman, where I tried to get back to the hospital for help. I thought my life was in danger, and panicked heavily. Again, I was picking up the tray of cookies, back into the same loop as at the beginning of the dream.