Monday, July 04, 2005

Half-Lucid?

This was a short dream, as I had already gotten up for the day, but laid back down on the couch for a small snooze. Dreamt I was living with Mother and Richard again. There was some sort of an event that included us, many neighbors, as well as the Corwins. I can't recall what triggered it, but Richard was on a total rampage, much like how he behaved in real life. I don't remember the circumstances nor the consequences of the situation, but no one would help me. Not even Mother. I remember pleading with Mother to get Richard out of the situation (just as what happened in real life), but Mother was essentially unable to respond. I begin to go around this event, looking for anyone who recognizes me that may be able to help me out of this situation. I remember running into Linda, who shrugged me off as though I were a minor annoyance. At this point I'm panicking, as I see both Mother and Richard emerge from the kitchen, just having discussed the situation, and Richard having once again successfully convincing Mother that I'm simply overreacting, etc.

At this point in the dream I realize that I'm crying in real life. I wouldn't call it a lucid dream, as I was unable to control what was going on, but I was halfway aware that I was crying in real life. It's been about ten minutes since I've woken up and I still haven't been able to stop crying. Perhaps I'll be able to elaborate more on this later today.